Shekh ma shieraki anni

Cold and windy on the mountain today. Trip into Ipswich and saw our bank lady Michelle who sorted us out with a personal loan at lower interest to pay off the car loan, get rid of Toyota Finance and expensive car insurance. Yay!

Had a look at a really good change table for Durian that is also a bath and good storage for just $150 at Target. So, there are cheap options out there. Plus we found a super cool cords and jacket. Haven't bought anything yet though.

Just finished painting the outside of the caravan green, so now it looks like something from Mash. Tomorrow I am spraying some stencils of sun and stars on it, to spruce it up a bit. Will post piccies when done.

Next weekend I am going to Baby Expo with Annie and kiddies but mainly looking forward to just hanging out with them really. The expo is just an excuse :) Oh and now less than 100 days to go :)

25 weeks or so

25 weeks and a few days and finally look very pregnant, like, no doubt about it pregnant. It's a definite improvement from beer gut :) Restructuring at work has caused a bit of stress but trying to not take things personally, even though it sometimes is hard. At the same time as wishing for my maternity leave to start, I also dread the notion of not working fulltime, well, not working at all. I am such a restless person so have to make an effort to do other things, even though I might be tired.

I wish for a healthy 15 weeks to go, then a healthy baby boy that fingers crossed is as sweet as Marcus. I know it's not a comparison anyone can or should make, but Marcus is a testament to the awesome parenting of my beautiful sister and her husband and such a comfort for me to be able to turn to for help soon. Love you.

Baby bump and french guys

Have two french dudes at our house. They helped Paul do some work today in exchange for a bbq and some french butter biscuits from Aldi :) They very much liked my Manu impressions and commented the lights from Laidley lookes like Las Vegas, hihi.

Here is my bump too. 22 weeks today I believe and Paul felt a really strong kick from Durian last night.

Can you feel the love tonight...

My little boy and my big girl :) I love them so much.

Cold

It was a cold night last night. Paul even said he had brain freeze, never heard of brain freeze from low temps :) He has a tendency to dramatise things tho. Hoping his son won't take after him, but they will most likely both be Virgos so...better be prepared. So between his two shifts today he did some serious fireplace installation of price hunting. Lowest we could find installed is around $1700 but have to pay off solar panels first. At least the panels are off setting the heaters we have to run in the meantime. Luckily it will be getting warmer by the time Durian arrives. He is kicking up a storm by the way, has been the last week or so and I feel him every day. He seems to like to kick on my bottom right side, his favourite spot.

Pauls parents were here last weekend and it was full on but very nice to see them again, they are quite easy going and certainly make me feel very loved and appreciated which is very nice. I really believe they know how happy Paul is and how good we are for each other, even though we sometimes drive each other crazy :) Isn't that what passion is anyway ? Hihi.



Public Holiday for me today ( Ipswich Ekka ) so had the day at home. Started cleaning out the nursery to remove all non baby related things and since the room has barely been touched since we moved in it was very dusty and subsequently I have sneezed all day and am very tired now. But at least the room looks better and it was so nice to look through some of the stuff we have been given, some little onesies and socks that are tiny. I want to get a cot in there, I think it will feel more real then. I still can't really believe what we have started here... :)

Bloody Cats

Gave up on finding the little book that had the password to my blogger account so had to go through the pain of resetting everything. Got there in the end :)

The skin on my ankles, back, parts of my leg and arms are aching from a million mozzie bites I got while spending 45 mins trying to convince dear Smudge to come inside and not be eaten by a dingo. In the end I had a fit and burst into tears and couldn't cope anymore so I went inside and then she came to the door and when I opened it she just waltzed in. So I had another bawl and a shower and now I feel better, only achy from the bites I am trying not to scratch.

I get angry so easily and I feel so inside out at the moment. Find it easy to argue and to fall apart and just want to give up. Incredibly overwhelmed by everything and I feel massive and uncomfortable. Everyone says I am so big for my weeks which feels horrible because I freak out I am going to become huge. I have hot flushes and can't keep a conversation without feeling bothered by people, even people I know.

Have to try to keep positive though, even when it's hard and try not to stress about things. Not good for me or baby. ANZAC day tomorrow, so will get a sleep in at least.

Thin slices of rye

Monday again and no motivation at work whatsoever. Everyone just annoys me and I just want to say "sorry, I am sick and going home" I get frustrated with the lack of work ethics around me and I feel bad for asking to leave half an hour early so end up staying back and then rushing and then the next person doesn't even ask, they just say " I am leaving a bit early today". I suppose I shouldn't be angry at them really, it's not their fault I am a wuz :)
Very tired and very fat! Well, havent put on any weight in like 3 weeks but my belly is growing, especially after meals. I know my digestive system has slowed right down which may be why I am feeling so sluggish and hot and bothered. Thank God for aircon :)
Very excited my favourite little guy got his Harry Potter wand and he loves it. Just made me smile the whole way home it did. I love surprises to that's my favourite thing to do to him, out of the blue, one day just coming home from school and there it is, a present! Plus I think he is such a good boy and deserves all I can give him!
Moving soon, and half the house is packed, the rest is not. Half the skirtings are scrubbed, half are not. But will get there in the end and then we have all of Easter to relax...ehhh...build fences I mean :)

Tired with lots to do

So tired, so much to do this weekend, pack and clean and try to get some sleep. But hey, bub is doing beautifully, that's all that matters now.

Good week

The boss has been away so I have been acting Manager for the week which means lots to do and an overall better mood in the office. There are a lot of changes coming up, some which will shock people, but all needed I think. I only have about 5 months to go I spose, so wont really be my problem. Don't want to count my baby before it's hatched but I haven't had any signs of anything being wrong so quietly thinking it's all good. Just hope blood test and scans say the same.

Belly button

I have started to get odd pain sort of behind my belly button and been worrying about it all day and not game to google anything pregnancy related at work. Turns out I am not alone and just pains from stretching because my uterus and baby is growing. Wonderful :)

Great weekend!

Had the best time in Strathpine yesterday! Got off to an early start on the long drive and escaped all traffic, then had a really nice BBQ with a friendly face from the past and his friend who sounded just like Jamie Oliver. I couldn't stop myself asking him to say "yoghurt" :) I love how poms say that word!

Then Markie and I played some Harry Potter on the Wii and then I had some really yummy tuna rice bake and we finished the night off with a midnight feast! Me and Markie built our own diagon alley, with shops and tricks and magic and fire and ate yummy mango. The best ever. Then I felt a bit crook this morning so headed off early and then I took the exit to Redcliffe instead of the M1 and got lost for a bit. Just think my mind is a bit all over the place. Came home and had a rest, then went to the Plant Expo at Ipswich where Paul managed to convince me to buy more fruit trees and he spoke to everyone for ages and my feet were aching so bad. But I have learnt to be patient. Just finished mowing and whipper snipping most of the yard now, not long until we move and so much to do. Gah.

Boss is on holidays next week so I have to manage the place. I can't even manage myself at the moment, not going to be a good week but hoping it means I will be busy and time with fly. Have a new scan date to look forward too!

Bloody hell

So,after waiting for this day to come for weeks and weeks, taking the time off work and drinking one litre of water I stand busting to pee in the line at Radiology. When its finally my turn the lady goes " We can't do this here, this is for a nuchal, we don't have the staff or the machine to do it" I don't even really react because this is so typical of my life it almost hurts a bit. So, she rings Ipswich for me and they tell me it's too early and I have to be at least 12 weeks and 5 days. So, booked in for Wed 20/3, which means I will be 13 week and 3 days or something. My doctor told me to ring and book at Gatton and when I asked if I had to go to Ipswich she said no, Gatton does them. So I ring Gatton and make the appointment and tell them what it's for. They say nothing. Very frustrating. Then had to go to Inala to look at a car, still upset and just sad I didn't get to see my baby. Starting to doubt he/she is in there.
Taking it easy tonight and going to Strathpine tomorrow morning instead when I have had some rest and can deal with the drive.

I like

From Tree of Life

...this shirt...a lot...and it would work with a singlet under when I get my bump because its a sort of short t-shirt. I like a lot :) So, dear sister, perhaps we could swing past this weekend?

Tired

So tired last night and emotions are so uncontrollable. I go from being angelic to horrible with no time in between. Then I couldn't sleep because all I could see before my closed eyes was my cat Samson's face smiling like the cat in Alice in Wonderland inside a rose where all the petals where different colours and glowing bright. So, got up and watched some bizarre pseudo reality show on 7Mate about some guys trying to buy a canoe off this guy who had so many canoes but emotional attachments to all of them. Eventually my freaky cat flower image faded and I dragged myself back to bed. Both Smudgie and Samson followed me into the bed, then out again and then back in. Poor hubby must have felt so lonely. One more day at work, then a long weekend with some sleep in. Worried about the car thing, hubby and I have such different views on what we should do and argue about it, which is so unlike us. I think the pregnancy together with all the buying a house stuff is getting to us both. Can't wait for the pregnancy to be open and happy, not feel like an impending doom. Oh, tried to drink some Coke today after many weeks without it and tasted like shit. So, that's good I guess.

I need a new car

After much debating yesterday we decided to skip Southbank, crowds and public transport and go to Mt Cootha botanical gardens instead. Paul got some cutting and hid them in his umbrella and then we had fish and chips at Rainworth, which was nice. Yummy :) We had to drop back some movies so went through Laidley and then past Sun and Stars and boy did we get excited when we say the SOLD sign. Then 15 metres into the drive way we realised we would most likely get bogged in my little hatch back so now I have to find out if I can swap or upgrade or I dont know what to get a 4WD. We will be fine for winter but between now and then and for next summer I dont know...

Tantrums

Threw an absolute tantrum last night, like a 2 year old. Poor Paul, I don't know how he puts up with me at the moment. I have to try to focus on staying positive but sometimes I just lose my cool. The reason? He cooked filo pastry with sweet potatoes, cheese and spinach but when he served it to me he realised he forgot to put in the bacon. Which of course to me is so bad I had to cry and shut myself in the room for 5 mins with him at the door going "I can fry some bacon for you if you want" and me yelling " I don't want any f**king bacon". Haha, he did forgive and I ended up having two helpings, because it was so nice. Psycho. Good thing the 12 week mark is close, my emotions should turn to a more positive vibe...

Beautiful

Last day of summer

28th of February today and just realised my blog is dating everything one day out. So it wanted to say it was 27th. I don't like living in the past so I think I have managed to change it. If not, just assume it's all written the day after blogger tells you.

Morning sickness is easing and the snack monster is returning to normal eating habits, well, sort of normal except for the "all I can think about is bacon and sourcream" moments. 

Only one week left until my scan now so I can hopefully get news all is progressing well. Then I just have to tell work, gah !

Got an sms this morning from the bank saying the are ready to settle, YES! 28th of March is the day.
Meeting with the financial planner at the bank tomorrow, hoping he can help me set up a good budget.

On a bad note, I am stressing about something I can't really do too much about so trying not to and failing at it. Hmmm...  Plus my glands are swelling and my throat is sore. But the positives outweight the negatives, so life is pretty good!

We are going to have a wicked tipi on our property!

Rain

It's raining again, roads are flooding again and once again I am glad I have about 4 options on how to get home and to work.

Option 2 got me home this arvo, will see what tomorrow morning will bring.

I do love living in the Lockyer Valley or "the Salad Bowl" as they call it. But not when it's raining. It's a bit sad how people react when I tell them I live here, like they pity me which I can understand with all the bad events of late but I wish people could see the beauty of it and the strength in the people who live here that never give up.

Avamys

Avamys, how I miss you so. Struggling with allergies, nose is sore, sinuses are blocked and I sneeze and sneeze and sneeze. Do not want to take the risk of taking the medication just in case, but am going insane. If only I was allergic to sugar and not my beautiful cats !

It is a bit cooler today which is a relief so we might try to get the window screens cleaned. Apologies to the hundreds of spider who will be homeless this afternoon :(

Chocolate soy milk and fish fingers

I love chocolate soy milk and I love the Jamie Oliver brand of fish fingers. They actually contain fish and taste just like the ones from back home.

Signed the loan documents today, so now its just a waiting game plus a paying fees and deposits game.

We named the place Sun and Stars from GOT.

Sun and Stars

Michelle from the bank rang and the valuation came through with a thumbs up, place listed as rural residential :) Happy Happy Joy Joy !

Alcohol free beer doesn't taste too bad either! Hubby got me some so we could have a toast :)

This is the view from where the little house is :)

This is the little house, our little house, soon... Well the banks really but we will live there :)

Strong winds

Weather is a bit crazy which messes with our Internet connection. Valuer from bank was at Sun and Stars today, fingers crossed he will give it a good score, in spite of the ruralness of it. We love it and I would love to bring Marley or Durian home there. We will never have issues with neighbours again! Fingers crossed.
It is such a small place but the views are spectacular and 21 acres of land to grow grow grow!

Samson went to the vet yesterday and got the snip. He seems ok with it all but hasn't really chilled down at all, still a bit crazy :) But I love him that way!

On a bad note, I feel huge and horrible. Trying to dress well but all I see is roundness. My boobs are huge too. Lots of milk :)

Almost 9 weeks

See no Evil :) 9 weeks into it and feel pretty average. Hubby is very good though and keeps reassuring me it's all good. I feel tired and swollen, can't wait for the 8th of March when it will feel more real and less like I am just depriving myself of all the toxins I love.